Guilt

Brock was a naughty boy today! He wouldn't eat, he wouldn't nap, and everything he did was something he knows he isn't supposed to do. These days don't come along very often, maybe once every 2 weeks or so. Usually he is well behaved, cute, fun, and energetic, with some crazy thrown in too.

You'd think that I'd be especially patient with him when he has a rough day since they don't come along often, but I think that actually makes it worse...because I know he is better than he is acting! Towards the late afternoon today I was so fed up with him that I got really mad at him (don't worry, nothing serious, just a very loud and strict voice that I don't like using).

Since he's been in bed for the last few hours, I can't stop thinking about those 10 seconds today and feeling horrible about them! Brock is my precious son, and today, I didn't treat him like that at all. I realize now, that I do need to develop more patience for his few bad days. Everyone has off days every once in a while, especially little kids! I need to remember that he is only about 15 months old and can't always control himself.

So tomorrow, I will cuddle him as much as he will let me. I will read his books to him as many times as he wants. I will love him no matter what kind of day he has and will treat him like the special boy that he is.

I love this boy!